Many have warned us that cults like MCF and BCF keep you thinking the wrong way for decades. And that’s even appreciating God’s miraculous healing interventions because healing is often still a process, a walk.
I was skeptical because my realization I had been wrong about MCF came as a sudden epiphany (despite never agreeing with their Biblical proofs). And then I got REALLY angry with myself and them.
So I thought it meant my thinking would be instantly healed.
But, no, it’s really true. Five year later, despite some miracles and restoration, I am still stuck in some horrific and sad MCF modes of thinking.
I still can not get myself to EVER pray something totally normal for myself. If an answered prayer would end up giving ME something good, I don’t pray it.
Well, I pray it, but I can’t get myself to pray it sincerely.
MCF and BCF locked us into a suffering theology for so long we just don’t pray anything good for ourselves.
They taught us all our thoughts were idols. And we were taught that pro-self was self-naming and really evil. So you just stop praying for good things. It’s because the preaching on self-naming yourself to your own career or ministry plans or dreams was so forceful for like 15-20 years that you didn’t bother to have any plans. They would get shot down in seconds at meetings with elders. It was inhuman and preposterous. So you just didn’t bother even praying. Even praying felt selfish and evil.
After 25 years of living that way it becomes ingrained.
You think I am kidding? No. It wasn’t just teaching, but in all the counselling for 25 years, they never told me I ever had had a good thought.
MCF and BCF, you are a sick, sick, demented place.
I do pray for you despite the vast damage to my life caused by you and your manipulations.
I pray for you all as readers that we can learn to cast away such thoughts by applying Phil 4:6-8. Take those type of thoughts captive, name them for what they are (lies of the enemy), cast them away and think on all things good and edifying and wholesome instead. And pray soberly and realistically but in hope for good things even for yourself. And for your family and friends of course.